Love

It makes you go over the moon.

It drives you nuts.

It makes you do stupid random things.

Love, so precious, so frail.

Routine Weekend

Worked on saturday as usual, ate a little too much though, went home at about 330pm, facebooked till 6pm before meeting pork to do some shopping. We went straight to orchard to look for birthday gifts for Jason and Lisa, after dinner, met up with Roy and Jason for drinks at Dockside Bar, drink, drank, drunk.

Whats new ? Jason didn't come for bball the next day. Bball as usual till 1115am and we slacked till 12pm. Pork sprained his ankle again - must be chao keng .. wahaha

Whats new ? Pork said he couldn't come out that night. Arranged to meet up with Lisa at Timbre for drinks before going for movie. Picked Jason up from his place and headed straight down. Was my first time going Timbre, and was blown away by the much-hyped pizzas they offer. Had some wine, and listen to some live music. Pretty good place to chill. With Jason around, you know that there's gonna be supper. Went Chinatown for porridge supper, couldn't eat much so shared with Lis, headed for the movies, ended up watching Blood: The Last Vampire at 140am. Went straight home after that.

I think my life is pretty boring. Sometimes it feels meaningless. I need something to look forward to. I need a holiday.

An important friend

Nothing's gonna change my love for you baby. I love you so much. Thanks for being there for me always.

Losing someone

I think this best describe the situation that happened early this morning.


There's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough


It doesn't have to be that bad, its just that we choose to make it bad so that you feel good about it. No matter what, standing up after a fall is hard but your friends will be there to pick you up. There's where the trust's at.

Drinking, got played out, Drinking

Saturday - went to work in the morning, could barely get up. It was a quiet day, not much customers in the morning. At 12pm, the new girl came, I talked to her a little, she said i looked 30. wtf

At night, I thought the initial plan was to chill at serangoon garden. Just the bros. But ended up at fisherman's village with the 2 ladies whom jason sprung an apparent huge suprise on. I only drank a little coz I drove. We played cards and I actually slot a card in roy's jean's pocket, I wonder if he found it yet. If not, mid Summer night Breeze's deck of cards is missing a 3 of diamonds.

Sunday - I had to send my dad to Dover at 530am, so I left Fisherman's village about 2am, started sleeping at 3am. I sped with my dad beside me, and took only 10 minutes to reach Dover from my place, suprisingly, my dad did not scold me. I saw a sms by Jason telling me to go fetch him from sengkang, which I did, not before calling pork up to go with me. Bloody pork took 25 minutes to come down, and we reached Jason's place at 720am, headed to Mac for breakfast WHILE calling both his house and his handphone. After at least 20 calls, he picked up, can hear that he mustered all his strength to sound as if he's awake and said that he was up and will be preparing to come down (pork had him on loud speaker). As we left Mac, I told pork to call him again as I know he'd go back to sleep again. His house phone was unhooked, his handphone was fucked. We ended up waiting for him for at least 40 minutes before going up to his door to break it down knock. Pork suggested me calling on one end and him knocking his door on the other, then pork stopped, and said he could hear Jason snoring through the door. I placed my ear against the door and there it was, the legendary snore that pierced through doors. I left with shuhong immediately, I was pretty pissed while heading back to bishan.

Bball was pretty good, went home with 2 sore knees. Slept 3 hours before Roy and Jason came to pick me up for dinner before going to Ponggol Marina. We went back Roy's place to park his car at home before taking a cab to pick Kim up. The place was pretty empty when we reached, we had about an hour of personal KTV time.

"jason acting cool as usual"

"the only normal shot of jason"

"roy flexing"



Shuhong arrived a little later, followed by kewy.

"the arrival of pork"

"getting some love"

"Bros"

"Jason and kim, sorry I spoiler behind"

As the crowd started pouring in, our songs started getting delayed. We left the place about 2am, and headed to Roy's place to get his car.

No cab, no dispatch, Roy approached a lorry driver to ask if he could send us to the main road. Lorry driver a little reluctant, Kim used her "sai nai" voice to ask, Lorry driver agreed ! We sat behind like a bunch of illegal immigrants.

"illegal immigrants"



"Roy from Vietnam found his fellow village Vietnamese"

Went to Jalan Kayu for supper, I drove from Kim's place to kewy's place, I told Roy to send Kewy up, but he didn't. I guess it was because he wanted to pee so bad. Drove to pork's place, they watered some plants. Pretty much routine Sunday, drinking and singing not shiok enough. Guess its K Box next time.

Drinking

Boring thursday, went back home after lessons and met up with roy in the evening, Jason went for bball session while me and roy went for coffee at serangoon gardens while waiting for him to be done. Jason called at little after 10pm and told us that Kim was joining us. So we cabbed down to Compass point to pick Kim up while Jason rode behind us to Ponggol Marina again for drinks.

Martell and Beer, I didn't felt a thing after drinks, felt like i wasted $70 for nothing. Kim was her usual superb singing self and Jason was "not drunk" again.

Drinking session again this Sunday ..

screwing up

Its funny how people tend to say one thing but does the other. Sometimes you tell yourself everything is fine knowing that it isn't and your worst gets the better of you. You screw everything up and ruin someone else's day and now you're feeling fucking guilty that you did what you did.

Get what the fuck I'm trying to say ?

大雨帶我逃亡

大雨狂奔狂飛
帶著我的心碎
往事哭瞎我的眼睛
也沒有感覺
愛你愛到不能後退
走到哪裡都是崩潰
埋葬我的善良純潔
竟然是你的後悔

Motivation

Its the 4th week of school and I am still not in the zone ! damn it ! I need more motivation to work on the assignments I have on hand.




My left knee swelled up pretty bad, i'm walking with a slight limp now, hopefully will be fine in time for this Sunday.





Went drinking yesterday night with Jason and some of his friends. Some place at ponggol. Good pub, cheap booze and best of all not much people, like having a personal K-Box session. Kim has a wonderful voice. Sing that time summore very emotional.





Bought a new bball shorts on Sunday, to support the never ending bballing sessions. Went with pork for dinner at McDonalds and we were entertained through out dinner, this crazy girl kept shouting over the phone saying stuff like "What you want ?!", "You disappoint me !", "Lan Jiao !" and not forgetting the speech of the day -- "At least got people want me lor ! I hope you got no girlfriend, no wife and cannot get married" FTW ! (She's not a looker btw)





Life is super sian. I need to find my motivation.

"Jason acting emo"

Another good Thursday perhaps ?

Words

说了又不听,
听了又不懂,
懂了又不做,
做了又做错,
错了又不认,
认了又不改,
改了也不服,
不服也不说,
说了也白说

a part of me died

I never thought a day like this would arrive, after all, being accustomed to constant denial of happiness was pretty much routine. But it did, even though it lasted while it lasted, I basked in the mere satisfaction that for once i wasn't forgotten, i got my shot at being slightly contented with my wretched life.

I tried, I tried, I tried, but failed so miserably and that made my existence insignificant. Friends were there to drag my lifeless, wearied body, only to make myself suffer more abuse which was pleasingly satisfying.

It didn't matter how long the time was, the impact was strong, perhaps the lack of substantial elements to warm the heart can make a sane man insane. Without anything to offer, he's just like a fortune's fool finding a place that he can be accepted.

I wonder, sometimes, is there more to life than what it is as we know it ? What if in the end its all for nothing ? a null, a void, a disconsolateness prospect ? Would I still want to carry on ? Perhaps its that defining moment we're looking for, a life changing event that would shake even the strong willed to their very core. Is accepting and embracing what destiny holds for us the answer ? or is it merely all a lie that we choose to believe, deciving ourselves that there is more to life than it is now ?

Though mildly irrational, I try to move on, but get stuck in an array of traps not even set up yet. A part of me dies everytime i attempt to wake myself from this discontent. I'm pretty messed up eh ?

Xie Xie Ni Men ..

Thank you guys for hearing me out, listening to my rubbish and being there for me these few days. Life's pretty fucked up, but you guys just make the shit smell so much nicer (: