Only the Best

Wah .. best investment ever ..

Random thoughts

Lots of girls I've known since they were younger have grown to be hotties ! omg .. If only I saw it coming..

the irony ..

I Thought Wrong

I saw Freddie and Madelene today at Toa Payoh central. Still the same old Freddie. Madelene seems a little tired though, must be the early morning waking up thingee. Anywho, while in the train, I started thinking about her. It hurt, and just nice my iPod played Zhong Yu Shuo Chu Kou.

Don't get me wrong, I THOUGHT I was done with all the suffering and pain, I THOUGHT I've moved on, I THOUGHT I was able to handle it, but apparently, I thought wrong ..

Chester's birthday surprise

Chester's Birthday Surprise. Arranged by kangwei and gang. ambush chester at his house.

Happy Birthday Chester !

Ever had this moment ?

You did something, and you're not very sure if it's right or wrong.
And when you wake up the next morning,
this keeps repeating in your head ..

"Oh no .. what have I done ......"

photos in facebook, Cute girl in class !

There are some problems with blogger's picture upload .. so i'll just paste the link to the pictures that i've uploaded on facebook



http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?aid=95615&id=640475747&ref=mf



I've been rushing projects the entire week. Tired and brain dead.



Side track a little, I finally got to know the insanely sweet looking girl's name from tourism class. Apparently she's in the full time name list - Beverly !

The Aftermath

Jason's birthday is over .. its back to reality .. back to work .. picture post next ..

Pork's Convocation

congrats dude !

Random stuff

- My phone bill came. $80 ++ !! what the fuck man ! usually it hovers around the $20 range ..

Who the hell have i been calling ?!?!?!?!

- I've started recording down what i'm consuming everyday. Monitoring and balancing out my meals and hoping to shed the extra flab around the waist.

- Been feeling very emotional for the past 12 hours. Jia zhen told me she broke up with phil. So did Brother3 & Brother4. Love's pretty fragile these days.

- I feel like watching movie

- I have this urge to eat pizza

- I'm tired and feel like sleeping my life away

Teacher !

I saw Kaimei today, more mature. Got the teacher's aura, but still as cute as ever.

Sunday Drinking

Had a wicked Sunday night, dinner at hougang "the steak place" as labelled by Jason.

The Players - Jason, Me, Roy, Janice, Kim, Kewy, Nick

After which, we headed to Dockside bar in Roy's ride (the fancy bumblebee van), less Nick.

Linda was around, We ordered martell first, followed by 3 Jugs. I stopped at martell coz i was the DD that night. But I drank pretty much martell. Pouring quite a bit on the rocks while they were smoking. After the first 3 Jugs, another 3 Jugs magically appeared. Then came the bucket.

Roy was done coz he had a mixture of martell and beer, and chugging the beer down his throat. Jason was done coz he was Jason that night.
Kim was done coz she claimed she wasn't done.
Janice was done coz she basically slumped by the glass the entire night, bored.
Linda joined in the fray, and she was done coz she said i was her sister (must be the voice).

I sent them home, one by one. Tempers flew, awkwardness ensued.

Things are pretty much back to normal now, but somethings done cannot be undone right ? Oh boy, what a night it was !

Wimbledon 2009

Its going to be an exciting match between Andy Roddick and Roger Federer, hopefully Roddick gets the slam.

self-reflecting

Its been a while since i've spent my saturday night at home, my usual bros are occupied for the night, Jason at Butterfactory, Pork dinner with tty and eezhong, Roy's pretty much stuck at home. I thought if sms-ing the nurse out for a chat, even thought of asking raula for drinks. I guess they'd be busy anyway. Perhaps half-decivingly telling myself that. Anyway, i've decided to stay home, take a step back to reflect on my life so far. Some dramatic changes recently.

1) I've been drinking too much - Drinking almost everyday for the past week, pretty bad. Pork did mention about this problem, saying that the reason why he doesn't hang out is because of the activities that we do - drinking. I'd thought there'd be compromises made but apparently weekend after weekend, it seems like i've lost a good bro, he hangs out with a milder crowd now, which is more suited to his lifestyle. I'm not sore about it, thats where the problem's at. I should feel shitty but i don't. I think i'm losing control of my life.

2) Getting poorer - Money Money Money, pay for drinks, loans, bills, and insurance.

3) Losing direction - I'm stuck in this place, whereby i've lost all sense of direction. What do i want in life ? What am I doing with my life now ? What can i look forward to ?

I see this boy, sitting in a corner, watching people pass by, making it good with their lives, moving by in their fast cars and their loving girlfriends. Then the boy looks down at the puddle infront of him, it reflects him, facing the world on his own, looking tired, lost and in a total wreck. Then the boy looks straight up at me into my eyes, and then i realise, i've been looking at me all this while.

ignorance is bliss

Sometimes, we choose to ignore facts that are placed infront of us. Its makes us feel better, It enables us not to care but knowingly we do care. Its frustrating at times when you want to express youself, your feelings, but the circumstances forbids you to. Sometimes we choose to play dumb, knowingly it'll hurt your feelings but you just want her/him to feel better.

There is no turning back time, no second chance in life, regret is often felt, endured, and it gives us strength to try to make things right. Sometimes, we turn around and walk away, trying hard not to care, every step you take kills a part of your soul inside. You cry in the rain, salvaging whatever pride you have left. You kneel on the ground, defeated, tired and hopelessness overwhelms you. Sometimes we choose not to care ..

Sometimes, ignorance is bliss ..