Pork's Convocation

congrats dude !

Random stuff

- My phone bill came. $80 ++ !! what the fuck man ! usually it hovers around the $20 range ..

Who the hell have i been calling ?!?!?!?!

- I've started recording down what i'm consuming everyday. Monitoring and balancing out my meals and hoping to shed the extra flab around the waist.

- Been feeling very emotional for the past 12 hours. Jia zhen told me she broke up with phil. So did Brother3 & Brother4. Love's pretty fragile these days.

- I feel like watching movie

- I have this urge to eat pizza

- I'm tired and feel like sleeping my life away

Teacher !

I saw Kaimei today, more mature. Got the teacher's aura, but still as cute as ever.

Sunday Drinking

Had a wicked Sunday night, dinner at hougang "the steak place" as labelled by Jason.

The Players - Jason, Me, Roy, Janice, Kim, Kewy, Nick

After which, we headed to Dockside bar in Roy's ride (the fancy bumblebee van), less Nick.

Linda was around, We ordered martell first, followed by 3 Jugs. I stopped at martell coz i was the DD that night. But I drank pretty much martell. Pouring quite a bit on the rocks while they were smoking. After the first 3 Jugs, another 3 Jugs magically appeared. Then came the bucket.

Roy was done coz he had a mixture of martell and beer, and chugging the beer down his throat. Jason was done coz he was Jason that night.
Kim was done coz she claimed she wasn't done.
Janice was done coz she basically slumped by the glass the entire night, bored.
Linda joined in the fray, and she was done coz she said i was her sister (must be the voice).

I sent them home, one by one. Tempers flew, awkwardness ensued.

Things are pretty much back to normal now, but somethings done cannot be undone right ? Oh boy, what a night it was !

Wimbledon 2009

Its going to be an exciting match between Andy Roddick and Roger Federer, hopefully Roddick gets the slam.

self-reflecting

Its been a while since i've spent my saturday night at home, my usual bros are occupied for the night, Jason at Butterfactory, Pork dinner with tty and eezhong, Roy's pretty much stuck at home. I thought if sms-ing the nurse out for a chat, even thought of asking raula for drinks. I guess they'd be busy anyway. Perhaps half-decivingly telling myself that. Anyway, i've decided to stay home, take a step back to reflect on my life so far. Some dramatic changes recently.

1) I've been drinking too much - Drinking almost everyday for the past week, pretty bad. Pork did mention about this problem, saying that the reason why he doesn't hang out is because of the activities that we do - drinking. I'd thought there'd be compromises made but apparently weekend after weekend, it seems like i've lost a good bro, he hangs out with a milder crowd now, which is more suited to his lifestyle. I'm not sore about it, thats where the problem's at. I should feel shitty but i don't. I think i'm losing control of my life.

2) Getting poorer - Money Money Money, pay for drinks, loans, bills, and insurance.

3) Losing direction - I'm stuck in this place, whereby i've lost all sense of direction. What do i want in life ? What am I doing with my life now ? What can i look forward to ?

I see this boy, sitting in a corner, watching people pass by, making it good with their lives, moving by in their fast cars and their loving girlfriends. Then the boy looks down at the puddle infront of him, it reflects him, facing the world on his own, looking tired, lost and in a total wreck. Then the boy looks straight up at me into my eyes, and then i realise, i've been looking at me all this while.

ignorance is bliss

Sometimes, we choose to ignore facts that are placed infront of us. Its makes us feel better, It enables us not to care but knowingly we do care. Its frustrating at times when you want to express youself, your feelings, but the circumstances forbids you to. Sometimes we choose to play dumb, knowingly it'll hurt your feelings but you just want her/him to feel better.

There is no turning back time, no second chance in life, regret is often felt, endured, and it gives us strength to try to make things right. Sometimes, we turn around and walk away, trying hard not to care, every step you take kills a part of your soul inside. You cry in the rain, salvaging whatever pride you have left. You kneel on the ground, defeated, tired and hopelessness overwhelms you. Sometimes we choose not to care ..

Sometimes, ignorance is bliss ..

Love

It makes you go over the moon.

It drives you nuts.

It makes you do stupid random things.

Love, so precious, so frail.

Routine Weekend

Worked on saturday as usual, ate a little too much though, went home at about 330pm, facebooked till 6pm before meeting pork to do some shopping. We went straight to orchard to look for birthday gifts for Jason and Lisa, after dinner, met up with Roy and Jason for drinks at Dockside Bar, drink, drank, drunk.

Whats new ? Jason didn't come for bball the next day. Bball as usual till 1115am and we slacked till 12pm. Pork sprained his ankle again - must be chao keng .. wahaha

Whats new ? Pork said he couldn't come out that night. Arranged to meet up with Lisa at Timbre for drinks before going for movie. Picked Jason up from his place and headed straight down. Was my first time going Timbre, and was blown away by the much-hyped pizzas they offer. Had some wine, and listen to some live music. Pretty good place to chill. With Jason around, you know that there's gonna be supper. Went Chinatown for porridge supper, couldn't eat much so shared with Lis, headed for the movies, ended up watching Blood: The Last Vampire at 140am. Went straight home after that.

I think my life is pretty boring. Sometimes it feels meaningless. I need something to look forward to. I need a holiday.

An important friend

Nothing's gonna change my love for you baby. I love you so much. Thanks for being there for me always.