Expectations - Ignorance an answer to avoid disappointment ?

Initially, your mind would form a percieved image of your expectations. Curious as humans are, we venture into the unknown side, hoping to get a glimpse of what the truth might be like and how it differs from your expectations.

If it matches what the percieved image is, you'd have no problems, you'd be kind of glad and it'll feel as if a huge weight have been lifted from your shoulders. A kind of peaceful feeling.

But fuck no. You won't get things to go your way so easily in life. What if it differs from what you expected? How'd you feel?
When the disappointment sets in, you don't even give a shit anymore. Its kinda like the same peaceful feeling as mentioned above but at the same time, its not the same feeling.

Ok, at this point, most people would just close their browser coz they don't understand a shit i'm saying. Trust me, I have no clue either. But i'm just gonna carry on.

I admit, i was intrigue at first. This desire for subtle understanding, meaning of the whole picture. But as reailty unveils itself, slowly, but surely, you feel a little shitty, hoping you'd be able to turn back time to when you've not been lured by pernicious curiosity to where you are now.

Sometimes, the beginning of a situation is the most magical. The pristine innocence of a simple situation is usually taken for granted. People trash around, in search of what they desire, without considering in the first place what they might find might not be what they are expecting. And when its too late, they realise one thing being true - ignorance is bliss.

But is it really better to not know of anything and live in a fictitious and self-deluding world, with a glimmer of hope that you'd be happy, or is it better to embrace reality, self wallow in anguish and hopelessness as you carry on with your wretched life hoping time will heal everything?

Maybe life's simpler than that, maybe I'm just thinking too much. Perhaps the solution to a non-existing self-created problem is just a good sleep.

I need a to see a psychologist.