It’s been a while. I’ve got no one to blame but myself for the lack of updates. Laziness. I do not deny. Some random stuff that happened through these few weeks.
Vulnerability of love
A good friend of mine pulled the plug on his relationship with his girlfriend of 5 years. All along, I’ve always thought their wedding would be the first amongst our group of friends that I’ll attend. Stability is the main reason for my assumption. The news came as a shock to me. I understand that every couple have their fair share of quarrels and disagreement. The solution is usually compromise. But the question is, to what extent would compromise work. Sooner or later, it wears down both parties. At that time, would their love for each other be able to hold the fort and stay strong? Apparently for this case, it crumbled under that pressure. I wouldn’t say that I’ve lost faith in love, but the scepticism of the existence of love that is able to withstand anything exists. This issue has stressed the beliefs I have for love as to oppose dogmatism.
Is love really that fragile?
On the other hand, another buddy of mine recently got attached. It was plastered all over his facebook and comments rolled in, mostly with the teasing and congratulatory messages. A simple picture of meehoon bought by your loved one, spells blissfulness and it gives you that warm fuzzy feeling.
Then the question comes again, will this feeling of happiness last and withstand the tireless test of time? Certainly, I wish both my brothers the best. Be it at the end or start of a relationship.
Love, is definitely complex, we love to hate it, and we hate to love it.
Remedial Training
I’ve completed a cycle of remedial training at Bedok camp. It is time wasting and tiring, but I’m just glad it is over. I really need to get back in shape.
Qing ming
Qing Ming is here again, once again, the area near my house is jammed up every weekend. A simple trip from Bishan back to home usually takes 5 minutes. But with the traffic, I need to make a turn through Shunfu, back to upper Thomson and finally back home. The new journey takes 20 minutes with all the jam.
Every Qing Ming, my estate suddenly becomes like a condo. We have policemen stationed at both exits of my estate and they double up like security guards. They endure the sweltering heat and the unforgiving rain. And every time I drive up to them, upon seeing the car decal I have up on my vehicle, a smile forms across their faces. Two thumbs up!
Teaching
I’ve recently stopped teaching two of my students, due to circumstances that I am unable to react to and carry on teaching. It has been two weeks already, still no news from their parent. To make things worse, it is their exams this week. Hopefully they’ve manage to pull through. I think I worry too much for them, I really have to learn to let go.
Kick Ass
Kick ass kicked ass! Awesome movie! With its slapstick humour and awesome action, it is really worth watching. Oh yeah, by the way Chloë Grace Moretz = Yummy !
Song of the moment – All the right moves by One Republic
Showing posts with label relationship. Show all posts
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Saturday, April 17, 2010
Monday, November 23, 2009
Thank you
I remember being 13 years old, seated in my room all night, listening to the same song over and over. I felt that if I could write something beautiful, something honest, maybe I can make someone love me.
I’ve taken a lot for granted, I’ve never tried too hard, and I’ve always avoided responsibility. I came here because I was running away, I wanted to be alone, and instead I met you. I met you and you weren’t taken anything for granted.
I hope you get all the moments you deserve. I’m sorry if I’ve made your life more complicated, I’m sorry for a lot of things but most of all, sorry I never got the chance to tell you, no matter what happens next, I’ll never be anything but grateful for every moment I spent with you. And even though I keep fumbling for the right words, all I really wanted to say, was thank you.
Song of the moment - One day by Trading Yesterday
I’ve taken a lot for granted, I’ve never tried too hard, and I’ve always avoided responsibility. I came here because I was running away, I wanted to be alone, and instead I met you. I met you and you weren’t taken anything for granted.
I hope you get all the moments you deserve. I’m sorry if I’ve made your life more complicated, I’m sorry for a lot of things but most of all, sorry I never got the chance to tell you, no matter what happens next, I’ll never be anything but grateful for every moment I spent with you. And even though I keep fumbling for the right words, all I really wanted to say, was thank you.
Song of the moment - One day by Trading Yesterday
Friday, November 20, 2009
Monday, November 9, 2009
Letting go
Being together for 3 years, I've learnt many things from our relationship. Everytime I'm out, i see little things that reminds me of her. I've changed my views on many things and learn to accept and embrace life as it is as well.
Somethings never change, but some habits do. Somethings reminds me of you, it brings both good and bad memories.
1) I never drink tea, not a sip, even at chinese restaurants, i only take cold water and nothing else. I hated the tea smell, the bland puke-inducing taste. At Prata shops, i only order iced milo. Then she showed me iced teh cino. Made me drink tea at restaurants and i grudually accpeted it and now i am a regular tea drinker.
2) Chicken wings from Ang Mo Kio Ave 4. Every time I eat this, I'll lick the crumbs and oil off my fingers kind of like the way you do, your trademark chicken wing eating style really gets me smiling. Everytime I go to that damn stall, I think of you and sadness overwhelms me.
3) I've learnt to appreciate designer goods. One word - Prada.
4) I could never eat Spicy food. Not at all, even till now, you merely increased my threashold.
5) Pool Junction at Middle Road. I've learnt to play pool at a classier place, not the old dingy AMK place.
6) I can live with simple hawker food and cheap stuff. I've learnt to appreciate the finer life, finer dining and finer food.
7) We explored many places for night supper together, grew fat together, and with this, i'll take the knowledge of the existance of these places with me. Xin Wang HK Cafe, Ice Cube at serangoon gardens.
8) I'm not exactly a pet guy but I've learnt to love a dog as much as I've loved you. When i fell in love with you, i fell in love with two. And i really do enjoy going to Pet Centre at Serangoon Gardens for Vodka's haircut and clothes shopping at Great World City.
9) I've learnt to control my temper, now i'm much milder and more in control of the way i present myself.
10) I've learnt to be patient, very very patient in a relationship.
11) I've learnt how to love someone wholeheartedly and really mean it.
12) I've learnt how to be at ease with your family.
13) I've learnt that people change because of ambition, it might turn out to be good, might turn out the other way, unfortunately it went wrong.
14) I've learnt that actually sleeping in with someone you love is the most wonderful thing on earth.
15) I've learnt routine can't get too settled in since we're not married, constant change and refreshing ideas are needed to make things work.
16) I've learnt loving someone isn't easy
17) I've learnt to view things from a more mature point of view.
18) I've learnt that i actually love to travel alot, much more than i thought, and all the more better if its with you.
19) I've learnt that there are 90% lies and 10% truth in a relationship, but regretfully didn't treasure the 10% truth and chose to bask in the lies.
20) I've learnt how much one person can affect another. The hard way.
I've learnt many things in this relationship. For that i'm thankful not only to her but to the people who helped and showed concern along the way. I've never regretted going into this relationship and if i could choose again, i'd go through it again but in a better way to sustain and make things better. But as for now, i'm learning one last thing - Letting go.
Somethings never change, but some habits do. Somethings reminds me of you, it brings both good and bad memories.
1) I never drink tea, not a sip, even at chinese restaurants, i only take cold water and nothing else. I hated the tea smell, the bland puke-inducing taste. At Prata shops, i only order iced milo. Then she showed me iced teh cino. Made me drink tea at restaurants and i grudually accpeted it and now i am a regular tea drinker.
2) Chicken wings from Ang Mo Kio Ave 4. Every time I eat this, I'll lick the crumbs and oil off my fingers kind of like the way you do, your trademark chicken wing eating style really gets me smiling. Everytime I go to that damn stall, I think of you and sadness overwhelms me.
3) I've learnt to appreciate designer goods. One word - Prada.
4) I could never eat Spicy food. Not at all, even till now, you merely increased my threashold.
5) Pool Junction at Middle Road. I've learnt to play pool at a classier place, not the old dingy AMK place.
6) I can live with simple hawker food and cheap stuff. I've learnt to appreciate the finer life, finer dining and finer food.
7) We explored many places for night supper together, grew fat together, and with this, i'll take the knowledge of the existance of these places with me. Xin Wang HK Cafe, Ice Cube at serangoon gardens.
8) I'm not exactly a pet guy but I've learnt to love a dog as much as I've loved you. When i fell in love with you, i fell in love with two. And i really do enjoy going to Pet Centre at Serangoon Gardens for Vodka's haircut and clothes shopping at Great World City.
9) I've learnt to control my temper, now i'm much milder and more in control of the way i present myself.
10) I've learnt to be patient, very very patient in a relationship.
11) I've learnt how to love someone wholeheartedly and really mean it.
12) I've learnt how to be at ease with your family.
13) I've learnt that people change because of ambition, it might turn out to be good, might turn out the other way, unfortunately it went wrong.
14) I've learnt that actually sleeping in with someone you love is the most wonderful thing on earth.
15) I've learnt routine can't get too settled in since we're not married, constant change and refreshing ideas are needed to make things work.
16) I've learnt loving someone isn't easy
17) I've learnt to view things from a more mature point of view.
18) I've learnt that i actually love to travel alot, much more than i thought, and all the more better if its with you.
19) I've learnt that there are 90% lies and 10% truth in a relationship, but regretfully didn't treasure the 10% truth and chose to bask in the lies.
20) I've learnt how much one person can affect another. The hard way.
I've learnt many things in this relationship. For that i'm thankful not only to her but to the people who helped and showed concern along the way. I've never regretted going into this relationship and if i could choose again, i'd go through it again but in a better way to sustain and make things better. But as for now, i'm learning one last thing - Letting go.
Song of the moment - Stay by Lisa Loeb
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