Education Medication

Long week has ended. I free labour "committed" for 10 over hours this week. Next week is worse. 11 hours of free labour "commitment". Life is back to boring-ness. Work, sleep, work, sleep, work, sleep.

To make things worse, my girls are all going to poly, leaving me with my full timers. Don't get me wrong, I love my full timers, I think they're great, but without the energy and spontneity of my part timers, my full timers lack motivation. Maybe I'm just not a good enough source of motivation. Great workers need a greater leader to bring out the best in them, don't they?

Anyway, had some pretty awesome soup with boss at Soup spoon for "dinner" just now, after which I talked to Michelle for like quite long, to which she left ear in right ear out. But technically, I was sitting on her right, so its right ear in, left ear out. Since she doesn't remember, I shall blog in down in words so that she'll be able to refer it here. So here's a shoutout to Michelle ! Hello Aeroplane queen !

1) Choose wisely which course to take in Poly, the mistake I made was that I chose a course which I assumed I liked without really asking myself - "Is this what I want?"

2) Never settle for second best, same goes to life & relationships. Why "cheapen" yourself and settle for something you can have easily but not what you really want ?

3) Don't study a course just because you are not accepted in other courses. Appeal, take some time to reconsider your options.

4) Private education is not cheap, but seriously, nothing is free in this world.

5) Work hard for what you want, not compromising enjoying student life while you're at it.

6) Money doesn't fall from the sky, nothing beats spending your own hard earned money. Cheap thrills.

7) When you decide, stick to your decisions and live with it. Life's simple, you make decisions and you don't look back.

8) Nothing is garuanteed in this world, but sometimes, as corny as this sounds, you gotta look far ahead and see yourself in 10 years, will this move help you further your career in the future?

9) Decided what you want liao and update me.

10) Come back to work ASAP ! Be happy :D

Anyway, thats all that I can advice my dear Michelle, it seems that she herself doesn't even know what she wants. Thats worrying, but common. Not to worry, things will work out. If it doesn't, there's always a back up plan.

Its damn late, I think I gotta go sleep. Since I've been posting lengthy words and no pictures, I shall post a picture for this post like Michelle's latest post too !

LoL ! Amanda very cute :D

Song of the moment - What are words by Chris Medina

Universal Studio Singapore did not happen

Half of April has passed. Another half more to go.

Initially I was suppose to make my first trip to USS on wednesday, in the end, all of them slept in late, my champion Michelle slept till 1230pm -___-"

So while waiting for Aeroplane queen to come, Jialin, Sakilah and I watched Morning Glory, the god damn movie I've wanted to watch since forever. It was pretty good. Rachel McAdams is like bloody hot.

After the movie, Aeroplane queen finally came and we left for ion to eat. We went Swensens as Agnes was there to give training. After the meal, we roamed around ion and I ended up buying a jacket from Muji.. Sigh .. more money spent ..

We waited for Agnes to finish her training before going for KTV. KTV till 10pm, I went over to pork's place with supper and smokes till 1130pm before heading home. Pretty tiring but fulfiling day.

Come today, had meeting at Thomson Plaza and after which went for Pizza hut dinner with 5 bosses. Did you know that 6 people can eat $160++ worth of pizza hut ?!?!?!

Anyway, my aeroplane queen blogs almost every other day. I think I should try to blog more too. lol.

Till then..

Song of the moment - Pudar by Rossa

Reasons to quit your job

Saw this on Yahoo a couple of weeks back. Xinying also mentioned about this, so let me take this quiz to see how much I'd fare.

1) You Aren't Learning Anything New

Yes, you want to know how to do most of your job. But there are also things you want to be learning; otherwise you are not growing professionally. If you have stopped learning at work, it's time to find a job where you will learn new skills and grow professionally.

- Still learning everyday. New shit, new things to solve, new things to worry.

2)You Never Have a Day When You Wake Up Excited To Go To Work

If you wake up every morning Monday through Friday and never feel excited to go to work, that is a problem. It means you aren't enjoying your job and it is diminishing your quality of life. If you wake up every day and dread going to work, it's time to consider quitting your job.

- Pretty true.. This was what happened at my previous job, thats why I'm at my current job now, but Its getting bad.. I'm starting to wake up just to go back to office to clear shit.

3)You Spend More Time Surfing the Web Than Doing Your Job

When you are at work, you are supposed to be productive. Otherwise, it's a waste of your time and the company's money. If you are bored and surfing the web most of your work day, you may want to think about looking into job options where you'll get more stimulation and responsibilities.

-I use to do work at home, now I just surf the net and relax at my own time.

4)You Don't Like Most of Your Coworkers

There are always one or two coworkers in the office that most people can't stand. But if you don't like most of your coworkers, chances are your days aren't very enjoyable because you have to work with them day in and day out. If you can't stand most of your coworkers, it's time to think about finding a company whose employees you mesh with better.

-This is probably the only section that keeps me alive in my job.For most part, I ADORE my co-workers, I believe I have the best team with me. My managers, my girls and boys. Awesome !

5)You Aren't Making Enough Money to Pay Your Bills

If you are working your butt off and not getting paid enough to pay your bills, you might be overqualified and underpaid for your position. Go find a job that pays what you deserve.

- Ricebowl forever too small..

6)You Spend Time Looking For Other Jobs

If you are spending time looking for other jobs while you are on the clock, it's obvious you want to leave your job. So keep looking for new jobs and as soon as you find a good one, take it and run.

-I guess I'm too tired to look for jobs when I'm home, probably just procrastinating because I'm at my comfort zone again -_-"

7)You Haven't Gotten a Raise in the Last Two Years

If you work hard and benefit the company you work for, you deserve to be rewarded for that. If your boss hasn't given you a raise in the last two years, ask for one. If he or she says no, get out now.

- Technically I got my confirmation raise last year. nothing this year yet.

8)Your Boss Sucks

Sometimes bosses suck.But if your boss sucks all the time and takes advantage of your time, it's time to find a new job.

- Not true, my boss treats me pretty well and preaches teaches quite alot. But sometimes it feels that the place is run by him and not me :(

9)The Company Isn't Doing Well

This sign varies from company to company. You must keep in mind that we are in a recession and if sales are down but the company isn't in jeopardy, this sign may not apply to you. However, if business is down to the point where it looks like the company is going to go under, start looking for a new job NOW!

- Company doing very well, but bonus still so little. Bosses want high profit margin, but at the expense of staff wages ?

10) You are Stressed All the Time

You are supposed to enjoy life, not be stressed out all the time. If you spend most of your days stressed about everything that going on at work, you are not at the right job.

- Most of the time, shit happens one wave at the time. This is inevitable

I scored like 5 out of 10. Which is actually at the passing mark. Is this a sign telling me that I'm nearing the end of my carrer in this company? Perhaps I'm too jaded to think and to move on with my inconducive life.

You think ?

Song of the moment - A Song for Lady by H.O.T

Hard decisions

What draws the line between respect and insubordination? I know that I cannot accept disrespectful people but the thing is, do we give others a chance to explain their actions before handing out the verdict? Were there circumstances or factors that pushed them to their behaviour?


I feel for people who are lower in "rank" coz I was one of them before. I understand how they feel especially when they have to leave "home" to look for greener pastures. But does it give them the right to be disrespectful?


I hold a relatively "prominent" rank at work. My decisions will affect the company one way or another. My decisions also decides my future and impression of "work" me. Most importantly, my decision affects others as well. The responsibility is huge, and not that I'm not up for it.. I do embrace the pressure and responsibility, but at times, I do think that its really not an easy decision to make when you are mad or angry for some reason. The mistake I've made, be it with relationships or work when I was younger, is that I make decisions based on my thoughts and feelings at the point of time when I wasn't at my mental best. Does it spell fairness? Not at all. As I grew up, I decided to control my emotions and think with a clear head before making major decisions that might fuck up someone elses life.


I guess I'm making this decision based on the bigger picture and to protect a greater cause. I'm not sure if this is the right decision to make and I know very well that in order to be a "respected" leader, you have to be firm and cold-heartedly stand by your decision, no wavering, no hesitating. I'm not saying I'm not able to make life changing decisions. But it is truly hard when someone elses life is at stake.


I don't feel good, not because I'm questioning myself if I've made the right decision. I'm sure I made the right one. But perhaps deep down inside, that vulnerable sympathetic part of me just feels sorry for the decision.


It's been a pretty shitty day for me.


Song of the moment - Home by Kit Chan

happy (:

The thing is, I think I do has feelings for her.
She makes me happy (:
I has to sleep.
Song of the moment - Going Crazy by Natalie Alvarado

Funnies off the web

This is super lol ..

Don't we all love Mcdonalds ?

WIN !

Song of the moment - Fix you by Coldplay

Perspectives

You can never control how people think of you. You can be bothered by it, but it doesn't make any sense to make it your life. Sometimes, you just got to swallow all the misunderstandings and assumptions and be the bigger person.

Responsibility is never an easy thing. But I'm confident to say this for sure, the best way has been performed to its maximum potential, I cannot stop acrid remarks, I can only listen and convince myself that people are entitled to their own thoughts.

I've always hated being accused of something I've never done. Being accused ranks up there as one of the most hated feelings ever. Unless you don't give a shit (which is hard because u actually CARE), these accusations hurt. It makes the dynamics amongst individuals to become more acrimonious.

Everyone is looking for an easy way out, but someone's gotta do the drudgery work right? Nothing's gonna change or improve if we're just going to hide behind a comfort zone, safe like a mother's womb. Progression is part and parcel of life. Facing it, embracing it would be more appropriate.

The more careful you tread, the more likely you'll make mistakes. As conscientious as you can be, you will bound to falter one day.

So then again, like I said, nothing in this world is perfect, you cannot control what people think and what comes out from their mouths. Speak me no soft words in ruth or pity, one thing is for sure, just because you think it, doesn't make it naturally true, your assumptions are your untrue till proven correct. Don't create a perspective of someone without knowing the truth and the probable reason behind things. It makes you irritable ... and potentially prone to getting raped by a mad goat.

Song of the moment - Look after you by The Fray

I'll keep it in my heart

Just being close to you, breathing the same air you breathe.
Even though we're just friends, it is still hard to resist.
There is a question on my mind. I want to know how you feel.
I love you, but I just can't tell you so.

I keep it in my heart. I'm satisfied being happy like this.
Will you ever have feelings for me?
Have you ever looked at me before?
What is going on between us?

I want to know the truth, this feeling has been lingering in my heart
I'm afraid to ask, I'm afraid that you'll change.
Not asking might be for the best, because I know if i asked,
those words would probably hurt my feelings.

I keep my love for you in my heart. Coz I'm satisfied being happy like this.

Its enough..


Song of the moment - Astair by Matt Costa

Human After All

Finally, after going strong ever since I’ve started in August 2010, I’ve finally fallen sick beyond being able to tough it out. I had a 39 degrees high fever, with flu and a terrible cough and to top that off, back aches so severe that I could not get up from bed the morning I went to see the doctors. Its my second day of MC today, feeling a little better, my back’s treating me a little better and my fever has went slightly down.

This 2 days has got me thinking .. a lot .. To be honest, sometimes I hesitate blogging about work coz it is an open book where my colleagues & superiors are able to read. But then again, this is probably the only avenue whereby I will not hold back to state how I really feel and not feel hypocritical about it.

Being in charge of 40+ people is not easy, It never was easy not even till now. The challenge given to me last November was to be in charge of a huge outlet, spiralling downwards. It was overwhelming at first, but after 2 weeks, adjusting to its weight on my shoulders, I told myself I could do it. From scratch, I rebuilt the team, set a new direction and even till the extent of using unorthodox methods just to achieve goals that were never achieved before. With the help of my assistants, I believe as a team we managed to progress together helping each other along the way. But, it seems, I’m losing faith not in my team, but in myself now. I’m starting to question my ability and how long I’m able to hold on, I’m starting to question my faith in believing my team will be there for me.

When 40+ people look up to you for a direction to move forward to, it can be very pressurizing, your every move is scrutinized. Initially I treaded softly so that I gain the respect of my people, I play the good guy so my staff would like me. I guess I was wrong. I only gained the “thought” of respect, the assumption that my people was ascertain that I’m the leader that they’ll follow. Then I changed, I did it the hard way, it put people off, ideally this was what my superiors wanted, a firmer and in control boss, didn’t really go well with my subordinates. But then life became miserable, that’s not who I was. It was hard being an asshole constantly. I told myself that I will not give a shit on what people think about me. But that is something said easily but not as easily executed. There are a lot of things I’m able to over look, a lot of things that I won’t give a shit. But sometimes, as much as you try to shy away from the negatives, it will get to you sooner or later.

Lack of manpower is one shitty issue I’ve got to face sooner or later. Undeniably a shitty issue when you work with 80% students. I know all the bullshit about balancing the about of Poly and ITE students and working with their schedule in order to fit to the company’s roster. My 4 poly girls whom have been with me for the past 3 months are my best bet that they’ll help me through the dark days. Sadly, the 4 don’t show interest in staying, even my most promising one said she wanted to quit. Finding that balance to treat my staff good without compromising the company’s necessary protocols? How’s that even possible? One thing I know for sure, staff now is TOTALLY different from staff during my time. Yes, It was super hardcore in the past, compared to now, staff whine at the slightest bit of hard work. Am I able to accept it? Of course I can! Its life, with the improvement of technology and education, and the availability of alternative place of employment, a staff's lifespan isn’t what it used to be. But trying to implement past strategies to be forced on this generation of staff? That I do not agree, out of 10 young girls/boys, only 1 would probably stay. I’m not saying the 9 are weak, they’re just being rational about things. Why go through all that suffering? The 1 guy who stays probably found a sense of belonging, sense of belonging to the company? No no no no. Don’t get me wrong, its a sense of belonging to the people in the company. And how do we make the other 9 discover that sense of belonging as well? Well we don’t, its more or less settled on their first week of employment. Words of a cynic? No, I’m merely being realistic.

I even thought the lovely girl I got from my past outlet back to help me would stay. But no, apparently she wants to quit after her school break. Could that be my breaking point? I’m wondering, am I not trying hard enough? I know, you’ll probably be thinking “If so easy to be a boss, everyone will be boss already”.. With that, comes the next thing that is bugging me the most - Salary.. Seriously, I must be crazy to stay in this job for so long. I don’t even think its humanely possible to say that I’m satisfied with the current wages I’m receiving monthly. It’s crazy! Believe me, There are plenty of jobs out there which would without fail offer me a higher wage then what I’m getting now. But you see, that’s the funny thing, I’m still procrastinating, not because of me being lazy, but the amount of effort I’ve put into nurturing this “baby” of mine. Its hard to let go because as much as I rant and curse this god damn job, it’s actually not as hard as it sounds.

Having this 2 days of MC really allowed me to have a much deserved break. And tomorrow, its back to the office for more shit to clear. Having said all of that, I’m seriously like a slut going back for more torture after healing my wounds. Its like I've sold my soul to the devil. Some people are able to stay in the same spot of years and years waiting for that all elusive promotion, I got to the top pretty fast, and to get higher, a vast amount of luck and chance is needed (which would never happen) and these people who are with the company for so long managed to tough it out. Have they all accepted fate or are they all merely in their own comfort zone? Perhaps they are so well versed with their job scope that leaving would be throwing what they’ve worked so hard for. Maybe they’re just invincible like Superman, naturally able to take shit life throws them.

Me? I guess I’m just human after all.

Song of the moment - Yahk Roo Tae Mai Yahk Taam by Calories Blah Blah

This cracked me up

Seriously .. This made me laugh like mad ..

Song of the moment - Hello by Lionel Richie <-- has to be this right ? lol